1. |
State of Change
01:44
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A tension grows inside me
I feel it every day
It's when I can't sleep
Or dont know what to say
And it's this feeling that stops
Me from living my life
I know I'll never break it
I've lost the urge to even try
But this darkness I feel is not sadness, it's apathy.
Growing up has taught me not to fear feeling sad, but to fear feeling nothing at all.
See I can deal with the ups and downs in life because they balance each other out, but it's the flat lines that will kill me.
This place isn't what makes me happy, it's the change that brings me hope. Now I live in a constant state of change trying desperately to hold on to any hope I have left. But I'm running out of places to go.
And I'm scared to death of what happens
When I have no options left
I'll just have to keep running
Until I am out of breath
I'll just have to keep running
Until I am out of breath
I'll just have to keep running
Until I am out of breath
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2. |
Savannah
02:29
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You were there my whole life till
You made the choice to leave
Made a selfish decision
For shorelines and palm trees
But I can't really blame you
You did what's best for you
I just wish I mattered in
Your choice to stay or go
You left me here alone to
Cope with life by myself
You abandoned me and I
Stay stuck here in this hell
You packed your bags and fled the scene
Left me this heartache that I don't need
This is all too real
And I can't understand
Why you left me here alone
I hope the Georgia coast
Is worth the pain you've caused
You ran away to find home
But you left two kids lost
You can try to justify
Bailing on your children
But when all is said and done
You left us out to dry
You packed your bags
You fled the scene
Left me this heartache
I don't need
This is all
Too real for me
Can't understand
Why did you leave?
Please stay the night
My hope for you coming back is all wrong
This is too much for me
So goodbye and so long
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3. |
Yours in the Bond
02:45
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I told myself this time
I wouldn't get hung up on you
And as the days go by
I'm realizing what I said was true
I came here 2 years ago
Looking for a fresh start
I had hope in my eyes
I had faith in my heart
Thought I found my place
A new family
But my time here has shown me that
You're not the one for me
Now I'm just so done with
Trying to care at all
I'm not living to please you
I won't be there when you call
I've become comfortable
With the person I am
I don't need your approval
I sure don't give a damn
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4. |
Turning Point
02:58
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Here,
Here I lay again
Alone in my bed
I drank too much again
And I just wish I was dead
I'm trapped in this cycle
I need to break it soon
I'm just so tired of
Sleeping in past noon
I know,
I know I have to change
I just can't bring myself
To do anything
The thought of happiness is strange
But I can't follow in this life
In this shade of gray
I have to remind myself
To move forward and not retrace
I know
That I
Need to make a change
can't keep living this way
If I don't stop I will hate myself forever
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5. |
Changing WIth the Leaves
03:14
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The darkness
Is coming
I can't hide
From the cold
This winter
Consumes me
Feeling numb
Is getting old
When snow falls
I'm empty
Emotion
Has left me
My colors
Fade to gray
And my hope
Fades away
And every year
I feel the same
It's a cycle that
I can't escape
I can't keep friends
I struggle to cope
Life's closing in
I'm losing hope
I'm just not
Content with
The life that
I'm left with
And this hope
That I've had
It's all wrong
It's gone bad
No one helps
No one can
I'm stuck here
In my head
Can't help it
Can't stop it
Just rotting
Can't solve it
And every year
I feel the same
It's a cycle that
I can't escape
I can't keep friends
I struggle to cope
Life's closing in
I'm losing hope
I'm calling changing stations
Cuz I can't escape this pain
I'm calling out your
Calling out your
Calling out your name
I am fading into gray
And I'm calling out your
Calling out your
Calling out your name
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