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State of Change

by Ruminate

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Pat Donoghue If this song doesn't hit you in the feels, you're probably a rock Favorite track: Changing WIth the Leaves.
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1.
A tension grows inside me I feel it every day It's when I can't sleep Or dont know what to say And it's this feeling that stops Me from living my life I know I'll never break it I've lost the urge to even try But this darkness I feel is not sadness, it's apathy. Growing up has taught me not to fear feeling sad, but to fear feeling nothing at all. See I can deal with the ups and downs in life because they balance each other out, but it's the flat lines that will kill me. This place isn't what makes me happy, it's the change that brings me hope. Now I live in a constant state of change trying desperately to hold on to any hope I have left. But I'm running out of places to go. And I'm scared to death of what happens When I have no options left I'll just have to keep running Until I am out of breath I'll just have to keep running Until I am out of breath I'll just have to keep running Until I am out of breath
2.
Savannah 02:29
You were there my whole life till You made the choice to leave Made a selfish decision For shorelines and palm trees But I can't really blame you You did what's best for you I just wish I mattered in Your choice to stay or go You left me here alone to Cope with life by myself You abandoned me and I Stay stuck here in this hell You packed your bags and fled the scene Left me this heartache that I don't need This is all too real And I can't understand Why you left me here alone I hope the Georgia coast Is worth the pain you've caused You ran away to find home But you left two kids lost You can try to justify Bailing on your children But when all is said and done You left us out to dry You packed your bags You fled the scene Left me this heartache I don't need This is all Too real for me Can't understand Why did you leave? Please stay the night My hope for you coming back is all wrong This is too much for me So goodbye and so long
3.
I told myself this time I wouldn't get hung up on you And as the days go by I'm realizing what I said was true I came here 2 years ago Looking for a fresh start I had hope in my eyes I had faith in my heart Thought I found my place A new family But my time here has shown me that You're not the one for me Now I'm just so done with Trying to care at all I'm not living to please you I won't be there when you call I've become comfortable With the person I am I don't need your approval I sure don't give a damn
4.
Here, Here I lay again Alone in my bed I drank too much again And I just wish I was dead I'm trapped in this cycle I need to break it soon I'm just so tired of Sleeping in past noon I know, I know I have to change I just can't bring myself To do anything The thought of happiness is strange But I can't follow in this life In this shade of gray I have to remind myself To move forward and not retrace I know That I Need to make a change can't keep living this way If I don't stop I will hate myself forever
5.
The darkness Is coming I can't hide From the cold This winter Consumes me Feeling numb Is getting old When snow falls I'm empty Emotion Has left me My colors Fade to gray And my hope Fades away And every year I feel the same It's a cycle that I can't escape I can't keep friends I struggle to cope Life's closing in I'm losing hope I'm just not Content with The life that I'm left with And this hope That I've had It's all wrong It's gone bad No one helps No one can I'm stuck here In my head Can't help it Can't stop it Just rotting Can't solve it And every year I feel the same It's a cycle that I can't escape I can't keep friends I struggle to cope Life's closing in I'm losing hope I'm calling changing stations Cuz I can't escape this pain I'm calling out your Calling out your Calling out your name I am fading into gray And I'm calling out your Calling out your Calling out your name

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released April 1, 2016

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